A little of me lost, but a whole lot more gained.....

I got a new phone yesterday and I needed my 14 year old daughter to walk me through it. Now I wouldn't say that I am a technology savvy person, but this was to much! Why was this so alarming to me, after all many a mom has needed help figuring out electronic gadgets. I think it started in August 2005 when I married my hubby and started an amazing journey as a SAHM. In the last 3 years we added 2 more "Moos"(more on that later) to our clan. Before marrying my hubby, I worked at a car dealership. I loved my job and I was good at it. My job in short was to know everything about these technologically filled cars and teach it to the customers and occasionally to a sales person. I was the go-to person, if I didn't know it I figured it out. So here I am 3 years into my SAHM life and I can't manage to work a more complex phone!!! What is that about? Um, I would have to say I have gotten lazy (tired) . I haven't lost the ability to learn, although I do have full blown mommy brain a good portion of the day. But really, why figure it out when my 14 year old can just tell me....
This has been very humbling and I have taken a brief but closer look at myself or rather who I have become. I love being a mommy and of course if you do the math, I was a mommy well before my wedding 3 years ago. I was a single mom and boy was that a journey. I had to grow up, discover who I was, all the while raising a child. It was heartbreaking at times, but it was my life and we survived. As the years (as a single mom) went on I became a person I could appreciate a little more. My job allowed me a little extra income to get my hair done, nails done and buy nicer clothes and make-up. I always felt put together even when I wasn't feeling so put togethr on the inside. This baecame part of my identity, a part of me, and I enjoyed looking nice. So here I am a mom of 3 beautiful and amazing gifts from God and boy have I changed. I never put make up on, I wear sweats and workout clothes ( um, I don't exercise), I can't remember the last time I got my nails done, and well my roots are about an inch. As I type this wondering what it all means I realize that yes, I am not so put together on the outside, but none of that stuff before could come close to the trade off. I may still go put some lipstick on and buy a nice pair of jeans, because after all I need to still look good for my man......but when it is all said and done, and I am sitting here with my son drooling all over my face giving me baby kisses, when my 2 year old daughter wants me to sing to her, and I can pick up my 14 year old from school everyday....... I may not be dressed to the nines anymore, but my heart sure is...